A gurl has many faces and I am no exception

Sometimes, I feel like Kayla Kent (maybe it should be Kayla Kunt - a little too obvious? LOL), an insatiable porn actress who is very eager to please. Kayla has a naughty mind and loves anything kinky. Kayla is all about men - lots and lots of men.

And at other times, I feel like the typical gurl next door, Lissa; quietly sensual, confident and friendly. Lissa loves to shop and go on dates and just be herself. She loves a romantic evening by candlelight.

And in between those times, I am a little ashamed to admit this, but I want nothing more than to be a little sissy gurl, sissy lissie; who belongs in the most outrageous frills and ruffles. lissie is an utter sissy that needs a strong, dominant Mistress to collar her.

It seems, I am full of gurlish fantasies and I would love to hear from everyone about which role you think I am best suited for - maybe all of them? Don't be afraid to leave your comments, I am looking forward to reading them.

(and special thanks to Miss D for help with this one), love and luck to all :)

xox lissa

30 July 2009

I’m feeling really blah tonight – worked all femme and feel nice but my confidence got shot to pieces when I walked into a 7-11 to get some stuff and the young local morons with nothing better to do started the insults. I’m mature and brave enough to normally just sweep by and ignore it, but it kind of got to me tonight. I think it’s one of the first times I’ve had a girlish fear reaction to tough guys instead being ready to joke, run, or fight my way out of it lol…

…ah well. I’m sure others have had worse. Maybe I’m feeling a little guilty because my changing will affect other people’s lives, and that’s what has thrown me (not an emotion I’m used to at all lol). But I’m feeling a little shaky.

I’m also feeling proud because I’ve been working on some very sissy lil gurl shots tonight. I’m just going to post one pic because they are really supposed to be for a project post that Miss Dee is kindly helping me with. Actually thinking of the support I have from wonderful people on here and in my real life I’m feeling a lot better.

And these local kids will be in jail soon enough anyway lol…

So with peace, love, truth and beauty I wish you all a good night from freezing cold old M-town.

xox lissa.

29 July 2009

29 July 2009

Another short post, but a goodie I hope. Miss D posed a great question: why would a sissy girl only show her cute

pics and not sexy ones? (there is a difference, boys).

So I wanted to do some really sexy pics with my favourite red and black satin bustier and red shoes, and this is what I came up with – I hope Y/you all like :)

I can tell you that I felt so femininely desirable when I was doing it, I have decided to go blonde with highlights after all! And gurls the moral of the lesson I think is to go for it, embrace sissiness and see how empowered and successful you feel. Yes, a submissive can feel empowered and proud!

LATER

Omigod! My beautician friend dropped around today (the gorgeous and inestimably valiant Ms I) to talk about haircuts and have a gossip and a coffee. She is a good friend and extremely valuable, and I was talking about how I wanted to get my other ear pierced as well so I can wear girly matching hoops and dangly earrings (as well as booking a salon day).

The brilliant Ms I went to her car and came back with stud and piercing gun, and before you could say Jacqueline Bouvier Kennedy Onassis she pierced it with a stud! Pics tomorrow, but I am sooooo excited – this is a change I have had to really suffer for and I feel quite proud of myself. Now I just have to decide on acrylics; which will be easily damaged when I work or play bass, or grow my own nails out again (which are now in really good condition after buffing, cuticles, Sally Hansen clear coats).

Look at me go lol….

xox lissa

27th July 2009

I had been a slack gurl but finally went and got a new exercise DVD “Burlesque Beat” and some new lycra leotard shorts to match my speedo lycra bra top.

So now I’m going to be learning some super sissy flexible moves: perhaps after a year or so I will film myself doing the routine lol…

Please excuse the short post, I am working on some pics :)

xox lissa

26 July 2009

Girdled for bed, in my favourite heavy satin long black nightgown and red bra & knickers, do you think I will make men’s cocks hard?

I was wondering tonight, what is the purpose of a sissy? Obviously to serve and train and behave, but as Miss D pointed out, the end purpose of transforming is to become a fetish sissy pleasure doll for men: tiny waist, big breasts, lingerie, and things like long red acrylic nails. Do you remember the old Forced Womanhood magazine covers?

I have admitted my fate and am posting some pics of me ready for bed and my hour’s plugging (and if I can’t stop, a sissy anal orgasm). I know I can’t hide forever so I might as well get some practise – it makes me quiver to think of men looking at them and getting hard.

And the big question dear readers, am I to go blonde? I have done the goth-rock black for years and it is akin to changing religions…but I know it will further sissify me in public, and make me more into a playboy bunny type sissy slut.

If I wait till I’m ready I never will be. Thanks Miss D, and all commenters: I crave feedback and will reply too.

xo lissa

25 July 2009

My boned, lace up girdle; “Caresse” label (circa 1960’s); and my dildo and piggy tail plug.

Rather than moan about my late night having to be a punk rock boy (albeit still in panties, eye makeup, and wearing legwarmers over my tight girl’s jeans) and then describe my return home, 3 glasses of wine, fours hours laced in to my girdle awake and then five hours asleep, divided by a powerful anal orgasm (second now!) while bouncing up and down on my pluggy in girdle, panties and nightie.

I was pretending I was astride a powerful daddy with his big hands on my hips, one of my smooth hands holding my dildo up to my mouth, the other rubbing the area behind my sissy plums, again not touching my clit beyond a peremptory few rubs….

And again being a sissy faggot and licking up all my sissy cream…

…I thought I’d do a quick list summarizing my sissy progress on the eve of the end of the week.

Days in bra and panties – 7

Days in lip gloss and clear nail polish - 7

Days fully shaved and tweezed - 6

Days in pantyhose or leggings (vicious winter here!) - 7

Days in elastic girdle – 4

Evenings in boned vintage girdle – 4

Nights (asleep) in boned girdle - 1

Times spent at least 1 hour plugged – 4

Times swallowing cum – 4

Stroked orgasms – 2

Anal orgasms – 2

Times working fully femmed -1

Times embarrassed getting fuel at petrol station – 1

Current weight – 73 kilo/160 lbs

Height – 177cm/5’10”

Waist ungirdled – 81cm/32”

Waist girdled – 72cm/30” at narrowest part

I am feeling more and more femmed and know I have little choice in the matter as my true sissy gurl nature comes forth. As Miss D put it, “so it is all for the best that you become sexually adapted to being a gurl anyway”. And following Master X’s Sissy Master rules my having to swallow cum everytime I orgasm just reinforces that fact. I’m scared and excited and worried and feeling sexy, all because I know I’m truly not male anymore but something else.

xox melissa.

24 July 2009

A pic of me from last year showing how i felt this morning, posterized for some anonymity lol...

I must have been having some very sissy dreams last night! Between that and my humiliating new obsession with finding cock to suck, I woke up pantieless and with my nightie up around my nipples, and with my sissy stick very excited *blush*. I wanted to cum so badly but I knew I’d have to do it with my pluggy in and then lick it up after if I wanted to follow Sissy Master’s rules.

I am very lazy and woolly headed in the morning, so I almost turned over and went back to sleep for the half hour I had left before the alarm went off.

But I got to thinking about how dominant and manly Master X would be (I picture him in leather trousers and teeshirt, carrying a penis gag in his hand) and how much his rules and assignments both help and excite me. And then of course I just couldn’t help myself: I got my plug and dildo out of the bedside table, put the dildo in my mouth, and put a lubed condom on the plug.

Lying on my back and spreading my legs, I imagined a Master Daddy pushing my plug in while he was calling me a “cocksucking sissy”, and the strangest thing happened -as my piggy plug popped all the way in, and the lace ruffle and satin of my nightie brushed my nipples, I had a sudden shuddering orgasm and came all over my tummy (lucky I didn’t sleep in my boned girdle last night!) without once ever touching my dickie…

This is the first time this has ever happened to me (and I have played with my dildo on the odd occasion up there) and omigod, it made me feel both humiliated and penetrated, but so feminine and submissive and not altogether in control of my body. I sort of both fear and love what is happening, and I did remember to scoop up all of my warm sissy cream with my fingers and deposit it in my mouth.

This is what is happening to me…I have cum only three times since starting to apply some of the rules.

I am still girdling and felt really full very quickly eating dinner last night, and my posture has improved lol: I was thinking about maybe keeping a record here of my weight and waist measurements but am not sure if it’s totally vain and off-putting to people.

Oh and more minor sissy humiliation at work today (I was in a very manly environment to do a job), with my plucked eyebrows, nude lip gloss and hair in a little girl’s hair tie – do you remember the sort that are an elastic band with two plastic bobbles attached? The ones on this hair tie are pink cubes with coloured hearts on them, so very cute and sissy. And because I am girdling I have to wear my work pants cinched high on my waist now otherwise they fall down to mid hip.

I feel like I am changing both my persona and features - for the better ultimately - although there is fear and trepidation involved as well. I am beginning to wonder if I should change my name to reflect this other change? I am casting around for suggestions but I really like Melissa (Lissa, sissy lissie): what do you think? xox

LATER

I have followed some sound advice and put up a collarme.com profile, "misslissie": i wonder if i'll get a message? xox