The Schoolgirl Look :)

OMG - more than a year??? *spanks self* bad sissy...

Thank you everyone who commented and emailed and got me off my bottom to repost. i haven't given up!! just been v busy with general life stuff getting in the way.

So...what i did on my holidays lol: well this one day at band camp, i was wearing a tartan skirt, and my blouse fell open...i'll always love the schoolgirl look i think, it's so teasy :) hope you like!! xo lissie

pink!

let's face it, it's one of my favourite colours, and i think it's a cute outfit (especially the faux leather leggings and legwarmers) can't wait to lose a little weight though lol... xox lissi

peachy sissy dress!

23/08/10

well finally some new pics lol…if you look back a few posts you will see pic of my peachy sissy dress. So I finally got around to wearing it today, fully corseted and with my little ribbon on under my panties. I especially identify peach as a sissy colour: sometimes guys can wear pink in an ironic fashion (even though i love pink!) whereas peach is just a bit too little girl. And I’m so not used to the restriction of corset (or ribbon!), but it’s got me thinking about a nice Master or Mistress making me more girlish J oh and I apologize for the blurry face, but no makeup is not a pretty look on me!

xox lissie

A gurl has many faces and I am no exception

Sometimes, I feel like Kayla Kent (maybe it should be Kayla Kunt - a little too obvious? LOL), an insatiable porn actress who is very eager to please. Kayla has a naughty mind and loves anything kinky. Kayla is all about men - lots and lots of men.

And at other times, I feel like the typical gurl next door, Lissa; quietly sensual, confident and friendly. Lissa loves to shop and go on dates and just be herself. She loves a romantic evening by candlelight.

And in between those times, I am a little ashamed to admit this, but I want nothing more than to be a little sissy gurl, sissy lissie; who belongs in the most outrageous frills and ruffles. lissie is an utter sissy that needs a strong, dominant Mistress to collar her.

It seems, I am full of gurlish fantasies and I would love to hear from everyone about which role you think I am best suited for - maybe all of them? Don't be afraid to leave your comments, I am looking forward to reading them.

(and special thanks to Miss D for help with this one), love and luck to all :)

xox lissa

30 July 2009

I’m feeling really blah tonight – worked all femme and feel nice but my confidence got shot to pieces when I walked into a 7-11 to get some stuff and the young local morons with nothing better to do started the insults. I’m mature and brave enough to normally just sweep by and ignore it, but it kind of got to me tonight. I think it’s one of the first times I’ve had a girlish fear reaction to tough guys instead being ready to joke, run, or fight my way out of it lol…

…ah well. I’m sure others have had worse. Maybe I’m feeling a little guilty because my changing will affect other people’s lives, and that’s what has thrown me (not an emotion I’m used to at all lol). But I’m feeling a little shaky.

I’m also feeling proud because I’ve been working on some very sissy lil gurl shots tonight. I’m just going to post one pic because they are really supposed to be for a project post that Miss Dee is kindly helping me with. Actually thinking of the support I have from wonderful people on here and in my real life I’m feeling a lot better.

And these local kids will be in jail soon enough anyway lol…

So with peace, love, truth and beauty I wish you all a good night from freezing cold old M-town.

xox lissa.

24 July 2009

A pic of me from last year showing how i felt this morning, posterized for some anonymity lol...

I must have been having some very sissy dreams last night! Between that and my humiliating new obsession with finding cock to suck, I woke up pantieless and with my nightie up around my nipples, and with my sissy stick very excited *blush*. I wanted to cum so badly but I knew I’d have to do it with my pluggy in and then lick it up after if I wanted to follow Sissy Master’s rules.

I am very lazy and woolly headed in the morning, so I almost turned over and went back to sleep for the half hour I had left before the alarm went off.

But I got to thinking about how dominant and manly Master X would be (I picture him in leather trousers and teeshirt, carrying a penis gag in his hand) and how much his rules and assignments both help and excite me. And then of course I just couldn’t help myself: I got my plug and dildo out of the bedside table, put the dildo in my mouth, and put a lubed condom on the plug.

Lying on my back and spreading my legs, I imagined a Master Daddy pushing my plug in while he was calling me a “cocksucking sissy”, and the strangest thing happened -as my piggy plug popped all the way in, and the lace ruffle and satin of my nightie brushed my nipples, I had a sudden shuddering orgasm and came all over my tummy (lucky I didn’t sleep in my boned girdle last night!) without once ever touching my dickie…

This is the first time this has ever happened to me (and I have played with my dildo on the odd occasion up there) and omigod, it made me feel both humiliated and penetrated, but so feminine and submissive and not altogether in control of my body. I sort of both fear and love what is happening, and I did remember to scoop up all of my warm sissy cream with my fingers and deposit it in my mouth.

This is what is happening to me…I have cum only three times since starting to apply some of the rules.

I am still girdling and felt really full very quickly eating dinner last night, and my posture has improved lol: I was thinking about maybe keeping a record here of my weight and waist measurements but am not sure if it’s totally vain and off-putting to people.

Oh and more minor sissy humiliation at work today (I was in a very manly environment to do a job), with my plucked eyebrows, nude lip gloss and hair in a little girl’s hair tie – do you remember the sort that are an elastic band with two plastic bobbles attached? The ones on this hair tie are pink cubes with coloured hearts on them, so very cute and sissy. And because I am girdling I have to wear my work pants cinched high on my waist now otherwise they fall down to mid hip.

I feel like I am changing both my persona and features - for the better ultimately - although there is fear and trepidation involved as well. I am beginning to wonder if I should change my name to reflect this other change? I am casting around for suggestions but I really like Melissa (Lissa, sissy lissie): what do you think? xox

LATER

I have followed some sound advice and put up a collarme.com profile, "misslissie": i wonder if i'll get a message? xox

23 July 2009

I found my old lace up, boned girdle – waist training begins in earnest

I was SO obsessing about cock last night, wishing I had gone back to the adult book store. So I looked some more at Sissy Master’s, Annika’s, and Miss D’s blogs and then looked at Julie’s links…I’m ashamed to admit it but I downloaded one of the cocksucking hypnosis mp3s to my ipod. I was a such a horny little faggot sissy that I got on my bed and slowly pushed in my plug, put my purple dildo in my mouth and turned my ipod on.

Again it was an education: using my hands to keep my pussy and mouth full was becoming more important than stroking my sissy dickie, and I almost squealed out loud when I was writhing my hips pushing on my plug and I lifted my nightie to play with my nipples.

Omg, I came soooo much cream onto my tummy and chest – and then had to spoon it all up with my fingers and deposit it in my mouth, a task I’m still finding confronting. I wonder why? I’m not a huge fan of the taste, but otherwise it’s fine.

Two other interesting things happened today: I was slightly mortified to be daydreaming about giving head to one of the workmen at the roadworks I was stuck at, but I am happy to report that on going through some old bags and boxes I found some very cute things: a black net and lace peignoir with red ribbon trim, and my old boned lace-up girdle I thought I had lost. Who says you should ever throw clothes out?

So I’m more excited than a Pointer Sister: I’ve been obsessing about breast cream and figure training all week (thanks to Sissy Master and Annika) and now I have a very rigid waist trainer to sleep in and wear when I’m not driving too much.

Otherwise I’ve still been wearing my elastic girdle both yesterday and today. Since Saturday I have been using hand & nail cream, depilating, wearing gloss and mascara.

I’m wearing panties, bra and pantihose everyday, doing my hair in a girlish up do and worked completely as a sissy last night (no real woman wears those dresses anymore!)

I am now starting figure training and practising sucking cock, cumming only when absolutely necessary so I don’t have to swallow too often. But then it’s just saved up as a bigger load…I’m turning further and further into a faggot sissy bitch…

LATER

Call me a pussy, but I only lasted 4 hours with girdle today. Bits of me hurt! I guess I’ll get more used to it. But I did get some nice pics J

21 July 2009

Clear nail varnish for fingers, sissy glittery pink for toes!

Like any good sissy instructions/assignments, I guess nails are an important part of sissy’s day – today I have pedicured and manicured myself after buying some new varnish etc. (see pics), and feel ever so nice. With my smooth legs they just look so precious! I totally concur with Miss D’s last post, and am re-growing my own nails (while wearing a very shiny Sally Hansen clear strengthener topcoat).

Speaking of smooth, I just had to wax and shave my arms and hands too – being smooth just feels so nice and girlish that I want that feeling everywhere! I know I sound like a complete sissy faggot, believe me…

So I’m still chaste – I can’t believe it – every brush of nipple against my shirt, every time my rough trousers move across my silky panties, I feel like going out and buying a buttplug and proper cock-shaped dildo and doing exactly as Sissy Master describes. I’m still wary of licking up and swallowing cum, and the longer I leave it the more there will be, I just know it…

What am I to do? I feel like I will explode otherwise, little bits of shredded knickers and dickie ribbon shooting up into the air! I am also getting excited and humiliated by the looks I am getting today with smooth arms, shiny nails, and thin arched eyebrows paired with work shirt and trousers – I didn’t realise I had a slight humiliation fetish as well ha-ha.

Also, if anyone is reading, any information or opinions on breast creams would be extremely welcome.

Mad props to sissy Annika for great corset training pics, and to Sissy Julie for such an awesome blog (and flash! Oo lah lah, cock slut training…)